beginnings and endings…
At the end of the year 2006, there were so many weddings I’ve heard of…of people i know and of strangers. A cousin of mine just had her baby and my stay-home maid is now seven months pregnant (and still acting like a child). There were also goodbyes. MY grandfather passed away last July 31, a day after my brother’s 22nd birthday. And to think that this two people share blood, a surname, mannerisms and even handwriting and had very similar signatures. Rodrigo and Richard. On the other hand, last December 30, my former nanny died at the age of 57(? - not sure, she could not find her birth certificate; could be older). She apparently had a heart attack because she was startled by some firecrackers. I felt a bit guilty because she and I had a BIG misunderstanding that caused her to be asked to leave. She did have her share of mistakes, and even with her dead I could not deny that I could not understand why she did (mostly said) some of those things she did to (or said about) me and my brother. But for all of those sullenness, maybe there was an underlying loneliness. She had not married and had no children. There is much more to this story, but of course I cannot reveal someone else’s life in MY blog just like that…It’s just that she is in my thoughts right now, and in my prayers. I wish I could have forgiven her before she died. Maybe I could start forgiving my enemies. But being human, it is going to be so hard…
