Depression
Saturday, November 18th, 2006Depression is that numbing feeling that prevents you from functioning as you should, from living to the fullest… Instead of going out there to make changes to the world, you just had to hesitate and clear your head first, get your bearings together or just plain make yourself move. It is a feeling of extreme pessimism, of not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel or the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It is constantly seeing the worst possible scenario. It is wanting to hide from the world and just stay inside your room, to think (to keep rewinding past faults and failures, to keep remembering fears). It is a real problem but often not talked about because it is misunderstood. Depressed people are dismissed as weak, as losers. Depressed people are thought of as neurotic or bordering on insane. But there are these dark days that we live in wherein nothing seems to be good and happiness seems to be an illusion. Do you know that depression is just silent anger? The more we try to please other people and make the world heaven for them, it becomes a hotter burning hell inside…deep inside. And I wish I could talk about it without anyone judging me, without anyone lecturing me but just understanding, just listening…
