Bleak Saturday…
The Holy Week should be about fasting or abstaining from pleasures…not just about "not eating meat" while still committing the most shameful sins.
but anyway, this is not why my my Saturday really feels down in the pits. I have just had dental surgery last Monday morning. I was discharged from the hospital on Tuesday noon. I felt lucky I didnt feel pain. I thought the horror was over… I was put to sleep using general anesthesia and though the operation itself was painless, what happened after was a little scary. I woke up from the deep sleep, not being able to see a thing and hearing voices I could not understand. I was also having severe chills that I did not even feel while I was in an airport in LA wearing shorts.
Now, I am still in pain. My throat is still raw from the tube placed in it during my operation. I am unusually quiet… Eating is an ordeal I have to go through. Abstinence is not a problem. I actually force food into me.
My dad also left for Manila this morning. His flight was two days early. We all underestimated the airport in Pili. The flight for Monday is already fully booked. By Tuesday, Daddy will be on his long journey back to Dominica. This really turned out to be one bleak Saturday.
By May 2nd, my only sibling, Richard will be starting his Physical Therapy internship. He may be assigned to Baguio,Manila or Naga first. If it were the first two, by May 2nd, I will be separated from the only constant in my life for the first time. My mom is still here so she can help him with his move… By the end of May, she would be on the way back to Dominica herself, back to Dad where she will always belong regardless of where we live.
I cope with the physical and emotional pain by playing mindless games on the internet, and writing this blog on Friendster. This is a relief. I am able to express myself without opening my mouth.
